This past week I feel like our family is finally starting to come down from the adrenaline rush of the hospital stay and the exciting media blitz. It is now that the emotion of the past month is starting to hit us both. How serious Ryan's seizures were, how fortunate we are that he was able to recover physically and how the possibility of Ryan's fight not being enough are coming to light.
We have really been on a wave of emotion since the news that Ryan's tumour had broken out a bit on September 11, 2008. Whenever some news hits we are upset initially as we try to deal with the latest blow, then we accept it and get back to reality and live in today. But then we are knocked off the wave again temporarily with a new piece of information.
We know that it's completely normal to feel this way and we are fortunate enough to be able to quickly get back on the wave and keep riding, but it does seem to be getting harder each time. Each new piece of information makes it easier for the negatives to creep into our minds and keep us there for a bit.
Ryan has had a few blips on the radar lately and we are trying to keep our focus on today. We continue to appreciate all of the support from friends, family and strangers as we navigate through these rough waters.
Every one of us has struggles like these in our lives and all it takes is a little bit of perspective to get us back to the today and to get back up on the wave and here's what did it for us:
http://www.maniacworld.com/are-you-going-to-finish-strong.html
Use this as your reminder of what a true struggle is really like...
Dear Tasha,
ReplyDeleteYour "riding the wave" image is a powerful one. You and Ryan have had blow after blow in rapid succession. It cannot be easy for you to find your way back up to the crest again and again, and to feel carried along smoothly above the roughest of waters.
We aren't surprised to read that you experienced a change of perspective regarding the meaning of "struggle" after viewing the "Are-you-going-to-finish-strong?" video clip. Very few of us will ever have that degree of challenge in our personal lives. Nor will we ever truly know what the two of you are going through.
We just want you to feel our continued support across the miles. May your physical health grow as strong as your fighting spirits as you navigate your way through this terribly rough patch.
Sincere well-wishes,
Louise and David